While I'm on the "serious" post kick, here's another for you...
The older I get, the more I become aware of the scary ass things that happen in this world. Raising two children (and maybe 3 one day) in this day and age is truly a frightening thing to do! Reading and researching, while keeping me up to date, is also ruining my originally untainted perception of how people really are! When I was a child, my parents shielded us from the bad and evil in the world as much as possible. Now, years later, I am able to see and understand the harsh reality and it is S.C.A.R.Y!!! I can only hope I can shield my children as much as my parents did, without making them naive about what can happen to them in certain circustances and the reprocussions of certain actions!
I read an article yesterday about a man who was pulled over in Buffalo, NY for speeding. While the police were doing their routine checks, they heard something in the trunk. This sick, deranged man had a LIVE kitten in there, marinating in oil and peppers!! I can't even make this shit up! He was "mad" at his cat and was planning on taking him home and COOKING HIM ALIVE!! Seriously, it makes you sit back and wonder what the hell went wrong in this guy's life?! Thank god he was speeding and got pulled over! I can't imagine what that poor little kitty would have gone through!!!
This is just one small story in a world of fucked-up-ness. That's the scariest part! Things are happening right under our noses, but we just don't see them (or some may see them, but not react!) Our world has put a lot of fear in me, and that's a shame. We all have fears. What are you fears? Are they real, feasible fears, or silly ones like spiders and dark? I honestly don't have many fears. I try to stay as fear-free as possible in the attempt to enjoy all aspects of life as best as possible, but here are 4 of mine:
1. First and foremost, losing my son or daughter. This is a fear that lives in my head all day everyday. I wish I could get it out and just enjoy them and life, but it's just too real of a fear to go away. I've heard of/known entirely too many people that have lost their children at such young ages, and it's just so sad.
2. Losing anyone in my family/friends, and specifically my mommy! Death isn't "supposed" to be scary, it's part of life, right? But dammit - it is scary!! Losing my dad when I was 17 makes this fear way too close to my heart!
3.Spiders (or really any type of icky bug) - this is one of my silly ones, but I can't even kill one! Sad part is, neither can my husband, so we have to leave it up to the expert - my 2 year old son!!
4.The dark. I don't know what it is, but I either DO see shit in the dark, or my imagination is uber crazy! I can't even sleep downstairs by myself without hearing some sort of noise or thinking I see something. I am THAT adult that needs a nightlight!!
And to end this post, I'd like to lighten up by telling you....